today i've had a lump in my throat all day.
i remember feeling that lump in my throat when i was little and i was trying to grow up,
big girls don't ever cry, you know?
and so i'd hold it in,
and i'd sit there with that lump in there until the tears snuck out.
i haven't felt that familiar little lump in years.
as i've gotten older i don't need to cry as much,
and when i do,
my body just lets me.
but today i'm fighting it.
and the worst part is that the reason its there is stupid.
i don't want to be hurt by stupid things.
can we all just remember to forgive one another?
we do dumb things,
but lets just love each other,
and be happy.
and realize that we're not the only ones who have emotions.
“Forgiveness is freeing up and putting to better use the energy once consumed by holding grudges, harboring resentments, and nursing unhealed wounds. It is rediscovering the strengths we always had and relocating our limitless capacity to understand and accept other people and ourselves.”
-Dr. Sidney Simon
Every trial and experience you have passed through is necessary for your salvation.”
and you know, sometimes you just aren't feeling it today.
and you're really hurt,
and i think thats ok.
but remember to have a little spot in your heart open to it.
because you never know when the forgiveness will finally come in.
and it'll need a place to stay.
i'm sorry that sometimes i get mad and jealous,
i really do love you all.
and i do want you to be happy :)
lets say sorry more. and actually mean it too.