no longer homeless!

this week i got a surprise!

a big surprise :)

we got a house!!!!

finally.

and if you didn't know,

for a little while now,

we've been living with my grandparents.

it's been very nice of them,

i've been grateful for the experience.

but not having our own place has made me really grateful.

things that i used to take for granted,

i'm gonna be so happy to have again.

like,

my own bed,

not living out of boxes,

like being able to be as loud as we want,

and not having to worry about everything being so clean all the time.

and putting up what decorations we want,

and painting the walls whatever color we want.

and like having my own room,

(which by the way has bead board on the walls :))

i'm just so excited!

so excited.

we are so lucky to have gotten this blessing.

it's going to be wonderful!

and it as wood floors!

which i love!

and it's so bright!

which i love.

i took jamie and tori through it last week,

they were so nice,

they told me they had chills.

and i did too.

i love it.

and i love all of you,

and i'm grateful for everything!

ahhh :)

love, laura

love song of the day :)

i need you now,

and i just can't tell you why,

caught up in you,

i'm caught up in you,

untouchable burning brighter than the sun,

and when you're close i feel like coming undone,

in the middle of the night when i'm in this dream,

it's like a million little stars spelling out your name,

you gotta come on,

come on,

say that we'll be together,

come on,

come on,

little taste of heaven.

-untouchable, taylor swift.

dancing, and other amazings.

last night was a basketball game,

and after that there was a dance,

i like both,

a lot a lot :)

i forget how fun basketball games are.

i think it's the funnest sport to watch.

p.s. i'm now a member of the A team :)

anyways,

dances could be one of my favorite things,

i love dancing.

i'm awful,

but i think i was probably a dancer in another life,

and that's good enough for me :)

but, i am awful,

but, i do still have some killer moves,

and,

i'm sore today from it.

how embarrassing.

but,

on a more thoughtful note,

the dance made me really think about something,

have you noticed how much thoughts go through your head all the time?

like who you should dance with?

or who you should dance around?

or what you think about this song?

or who you were with when you hear it.

or how his sweater is cute,

and how your so sweaty and you hope you aren't whatever stinks so bad,

or is he looking at me?

sometimes, it makes my head hurt a little bit.

and here is another amazing individual.'

michelle perry,

she is fantastic.

she has red hair, which i'm rather fond of.

probably one of the prettiest girls i've ever seen.

she's honest about herself,

and i find that refreshing.

she's not trying to be anyone else,

she's just michelle,

and she's more than happy about that :)

one day i told her about my family,

and she pulled me into the library and let me cry,

and guess what?

she cried with me.

i'm so grateful for her in my life :)

just another blessing!

love, laura

confessions,

some confessions from the heart,

i like calling people by their full names "jacob, steven, matthew etc."

because i think it makes what i'm saying to them more personal for some reason.

i dislike how facebook changes my :) into a big obnoxious yellow smiley.

it bothers me.

i like them small and flipped on their side.

i like families.

and i really like people talking about their families.

because it says a lot about a person,

i think.

i like feeling like i'm going to cry.

i used to hate it,

but now i like how it gets things out of you.

if i like a song,

i will repeat it at least 20 times.

and if you think i'm exaggerating,

ok. 19 times.

every day when i drive home from work,

i go the longest way possible.

all by myself,

and sometimes i turn the radio off,

and pray out loud.

i wear blue eyeliner under my eyes most the time.

i do this because i think it makes them look blue,

but i don't have blue eyes.

in fact i'm not sure what color my eyes are.

but on my drivers license it says they are hazel,

but they are blue and green..ish.

is that hazel?

also,

in case you were wondering,

brown eyes are my favorite.

the dark-almost-black-brown.

i like to feel my heart beat,

except for when i slam my fingers and i can feel it in them.

that's not fun.

love, laura

:)

today i am happy.

so many things have been fixed inside me this week.

for the past few months i've had a few problems that were really bothering me.

and you know it can be hard to fix something,

when you don't necessarily have anything to move on from.

and you just feel confused,

and tired,

and hungry,

and like all you want to do is look up conference talks that make you cry. :)

and i guess that is a good thing that comes from it.

but on friday, a lot of things got cleared up for me.

and it was beautiful :)

and now i feel at peace!

and that's the best thing i could ever want.

and i'm so grateful that Heavenly Father did it on His own time.

because now i feel so blessed to have the peace.

so so blessed.

and today at church,

i felt the spirit so strong :)

i love these times.

when you realize that God loves you,

and you can see His hand in your life :)

and i'll never ever deny that His has been in mine.

even when it's been so hard.

love, laura :)

Be assured that there is a safe harbor. You can find peace amidst the
storms that threaten you. Your Heavenly Father—who knows when even a
sparrow falls—knows of your heartache and suffering. He loves you and
wants the best for you. Never doubt this. He has promised the faithful peace even in their trials and
tribulations. -Josph B. Wirthlin

Christmas Spirit

i just read this talk by President Monson called "In search of the Christmas Spirit"
and i loved this :)

"I am the Christmas Spirit.
I enter the home of poverty, causing pale-faced children to open their eyes wide in pleased wonder.
I cause the miser’s clutched hand to relax and thus paint a bright spot on his soul.
I cause the aged to renew their youth and to laugh in the glad old way.
I keep romance alive in the heart of childhood and brighten sleep with dreams woven of magic.
I cause eager feet to climb dark stairways with filled baskets, leaving behind them hearts amazed at the goodness of the world.
I cause the prodigal to pause a moment on his wild, wasteful way, and send to anxious love some little token that releases glad tears—tears which wash away the hard lines of sorrow.
I enter dark prison cells, reminding scarred manhood of what might have been, and pointing forward to good days yet to come.
I come softly into the still, white home of pain; and lips that are too weak to speak just tremble in silent, eloquent gratitude.
In a thousand ways I cause the weary world to look up into the face of God, and for a little moment forget the things that are small and wretched.
I am the Christmas Spirit."

i'll be home for christmas.

as you can tell from earlier entries,
Chirstmas music is my absolute favorite kind of music :)
but currently,
country music is my second favorite kind of music.
anyways,
rascal flats has this AMAZING version of "i'll be home for christmas"
really.
go to youtube right now and look it up.
i'll be home for Christmas happens to be my favorite christmas song :)
do you want to know why?
ok i'll tell you.
when i was little, i was 100% posititve that i was going to be a movie star one day.
not just a movie star,
i was gonna be a big deal!
living in New York and paparazi all over and everything!
i wanted it all.
i used to tell my mom about it.
being the amazing mom that she is, she'd just smile and say,
"yeah i know laur" and i really thought she believed in me :)
she's awesome.
anyways,
i used to tell her that one day when i grew up and was famous, i wouldn't live with her anymore.
but i promised her that every year i would send her a Christmas card with this song playing in it.
then she could be sure that i'd be home to spend Christmas with her.
it's a funny little story.
but i think of it every time i hear this song,
and how much i love my mom,
and about dreams,
and about my future family,
and about snow,
and presents under the tree,
and about how Christmas is the only day of the whole year where you can just be home with your family, and not want anything more.
and isn't that what its all about?
it's funny as you get older how holidays mean different things to you than they did before.
this year is my last one at home. and i'm grateful for the season.
not because of all the hustle and bustle and shopping (although i love all that a lot),
but because i have a family who loves me.
because i have friends who care.
and most importantly because i have a Savior who understands.
i love this season!

love, laura